"I want Cora to read this as well as you. She must know me dead as
she never knew me living. But I can not tell her that I have left
a confession behind me. She must come upon it unexpectedly, just
as I mean you to do. Only thus can it reach either of you with any
power. If I could but think of some excuse for sending her to the
book where I propose to hide it! that would give her a chance of
reading it before you do, and this would be best. She may know how
to prepare or comfort you - I hope so. Cora is a noble woman, but
the secret which kept my thoughts in such a whirl has held us apart.
"You did what I asked. You found a place for Rancher's waiter in
the volunteer corps. Surprised as you were at the interest I
expressed in him, you honored my first request and said nothing.
Would you have shown the same anxious eagerness if you had known why
I whispered those few words to him from the carriage door? Why I
could neither rest nor sleep till he and the other boy were safely
out of town?
"I must leave a line for you to show to people if they should wonder
why I killed myself so soon after my seemingly happy marriage. You
will find it in the same book with this letter. Some one will tell
you to look in the book - I can not write any more.
"I can not help writing.
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